Living Life

I still remember the impressive voice-over in film 《Fight Club》 that Edward Norton says "once again, I couldn't sleep."


That's exactly what the feeling I have now.


I'm trying to figure out what's happening to me.
Perhaps, I've been suffering a hard time dealing with my life in terms of my lack of optimistic attitude.


Don't get me wrong. I'm totally fine.


I just feel like I'm getting anxious about upcoming tasks that I don't really have confidence to face, especially when having to speak English all the time.


Life has become increasingly tougher since I left home. I'm supposed to realize it clearly by the time I decided to come here. I'm not affarid of taking these challenges in contrast that living abroad provides me a great number of opportunities to test my limits. I do enjoy living like this in a way： poor, starving, lonely, but meaningful.


What causes me to always feel somehow frustrated, which costs me plenty of time to adjust myself back to the track I should be on, I would blame it on my weak inner world that I am too pessimistic to move on rapidly.


All I have to do is burn, burn,and burn myself. That's the main idea of being "on the road."





PS：某天，我路過聯合廣場，與一個詩人四眼相交，他問我：「你喜歡詩嗎？」 我說：「抱歉，我英文不太好。」 最後，他給了我這張明信片。




Living Life---Kathy McCarty


Hold me like a mother would
Like i always knew somebody should
Though tomorrow don't look that good
Well, it just goes to show

Though people say we're an unlikely couple
I'm seeing double of you

Oh.

This is life
This is life
And everything's all right
Living living living living living living living living life

Oh
I'm hoping though
Because i'm learning to cope
With the emotion-less mediocrity
Oh.

Day-to-day living

Oh
I can't help being restless
When everything's so tasteless

And all the colors seem to have faded away.

Oh.
This is life
This is life
And everything's all right
Living living living living living living living living life

Hold me like a mother would
Like i always knew somebody should, yeah.
Though tomorrow don't look that good
Well, just goes to show
Though people say we're an unlikely couple
Doris day, and mott the hoople

Ohhh,..

Ahh...

Life!